i am sooo damn sad.

DAMN.***

I just came from Performing Arts. Super, last night pa ako badtrip. Kasi, something happened. Basta, it's kinda confidential. It's something about her and her parents and how she hates them being so strict. Anyway, she told me that, and she was acting like she wanted to die na or something. Kaya, I was so worried na. Anyway, Ayun, i couldn't sleep nga eh because of that and I had several dreams about her. Sunod-sunod pa. When I woke up, i called her house and checked. Ayun, buhay parin naman. She's sleeping pa daw. Nabawasan na yung pagka-worried ko.

Well, I ate then did my stuff. (bath, fix ng things) Then I went to Performing arts na. I was happy. I didn't feel down anymore. After my jazz class, I saw Dave and borrowed the CD of our dance. I went home, freshened up and at the same time, I imported the songs from the CD then saved it na in my itunes. After doing those, I went back to Performing arts na. I waited for my FRIEND. I felt a bit worried about what happened last night. (a bit nalang ha, kasi she didn't commit suicide naman or anything.) Tapos, i saw her. Ayun, i hugged her na and stuff and asked her how was she feeling. She said fine. Ayun, di na ako worried. Til' she said.. "Pumasa ako". Then I was like, OMG! :(( You're transferring schools na!? :(( Tpos, I felt really bad na kasi i wont be able to see her in St. Paul. :(( I really am gonna miss her. Kasi naman, even though we don't hang out together at school anymore, the thing is, i won't see her. As in, while walking going to the canteen. I won't be able to hug her and talk to her cause DUH, she won't be around anymore. I really really feel bad! :(( PLUS!! You know what school she's transferring to? AC!! :| Hay. :(

I'm really really gonna miss her. Well, actually.. the reason why i'm kinda worried and stuff is beacause I don't want people from AC to influence her or something. I don't want her to change cause I like the way she is right now. It's okay if she gives a twist or if she changes her sense of style. But, i don't want her to change. Emotionally. Sure, i'm influencing her on what shoes she's supposed to wear, or what color matches with whatever but I see to it that her attitude doesn't change.

I'm scared that when she studies there, and when I see her in reunions and stuff. She might act differently. Or speak differently. I don't know. I want the "down-to-earth" her. And, I'm gonna miss that.

:| I'm too sad to continue this.

i am sooo damn sad.

DAMN.***

I just came from Performing Arts. Super, last night pa ako badtrip. Kasi, something happened. Basta, it's kinda confidential. It's something about her and her parents and how she hates them being so strict. Anyway, she told me that, and she was acting like she wanted to die na or something. Kaya, I was so worried na. Anyway, Ayun, i couldn't sleep nga eh because of that and I had several dreams about her. Sunod-sunod pa. When I woke up, i called her house and checked. Ayun, buhay parin naman. She's sleeping pa daw. Nabawasan na yung pagka-worried ko.

Well, I ate then did my stuff. (bath, fix ng things) Then I went to Performing arts na. I was happy. I didn't feel down anymore. After my jazz class, I saw Dave and borrowed the CD of our dance. I went home, freshened up and at the same time, I imported the songs from the CD then saved it na in my itunes. After doing those, I went back to Performing arts na. I waited for my FRIEND. I felt a bit worried about what happened last night. (a bit nalang ha, kasi she didn't commit suicide naman or anything.) Tapos, i saw her. Ayun, i hugged her na and stuff and asked her how was she feeling. She said fine. Ayun, di na ako worried. Til' she said.. "Pumasa ako". Then I was like, OMG! :(( You're transferring schools na!? :(( Tpos, I felt really bad na kasi i wont be able to see her in St. Paul. :(( I really am gonna miss her. Kasi naman, even though we don't hang out together at school anymore, the thing is, i won't see her. As in, while walking going to the canteen. I won't be able to hug her and talk to her cause DUH, she won't be around anymore. I really really feel bad! :(( PLUS!! You know what school she's transferring to? AC!! :| Hay. :(

I'm really really gonna miss her. Well, actually.. the reason why i'm kinda worried and stuff is beacause I don't want people from AC to influence her or something. I don't want her to change cause I like the way she is right now. It's okay if she gives a twist or if she changes her sense of style. But, i don't want her to change. Emotionally. Sure, i'm influencing her on what shoes she's supposed to wear, or what color matches with whatever but I see to it that her attitude doesn't change.

I'm scared that when she studies there, and when I see her in reunions and stuff. She might act differently. Or speak differently. I don't know. I want the "down-to-earth" her. And, I'm gonna miss that.

:| I'm too sad to continue this.

isabel's place.

TRIP TO ISABEL'S PLACE.***

I just came from Isabel's House. Haha. Saktong One day ako wala dito sa house. ALIW @-) Well, anyway. I slept there. Haha. Duh. This is What happened.

TUESDAY NIGHT
After our hiphop classes, Which was supposed to end at 5.30 ended at 6.00 for the two of us because we were soundtripping while dancing for the extra 30 minutes. We went out of the studio na because there were old women entering the studio na for their class. (BALLROOM DANCING) Anyway, we went out na and Isabel called tita Shirley up. (Her mom) She asked her maids? (I'm not sure) When luis (her driver) is gonna pick her up.

ISABEL: Oh?! Bakit ang tagal ni Luis? Diba sinabi ko na matatapos ako ng 5.30?? Bakit wala pa sya??
PERSON: Hay, pinauwi na ng mommy mo si Luis.
ISABEL: Whaaatt?!? Then who's gonna pick me up? :-/ /:)
PERSON: Ewan ko, mommy mo ata yung susundo kayo.
ISABEL: Then where is she?
PERSON: Hay, naliligo pa mommy mo.
ISABEL: Argghhh!! Eh ano gagawin ko dito?!

Well, with that tone. It's obvious that Isabel's already FREAKIN' PISSED. Well, we had nothing to do. That was her MOM'S decision. All we had to do was wait for 10 years til' her mom finishes her bath and gets here. Since my house was super near Performing Arts. I suggested that I will get my stuff first and come back to Performing Arts before her mom finishes her stuff. Isabel agreed so, i left my ipod nalang so that she wont be bored.

Ayun nga, i ran back home. Fixed my things and rushed back to Performing Arts.

Isabel was still sitting there, listening to my ipod. We made kwentuhan nalang to kill time.

At last, Tita Shirley arrived na. We rode the car then biglang tita Shirley said "We're gonna stop by tita Chita's house first." Eh, tita Chita's house is right beside my house kaya i went home first. I took a shower, and ate dinner na rin.

Isabel called me up and told me that she was bored na and asked me if i wanted to come over at tita's house. I agreed, brought my stuff and rushed to tita's house since there was nothing to do here at home.

When i entered tita's house. I saw--
ANDY (My second cousin and Isabel's first cousin from Bacolod, BTW, she looks like Tal Tantuico.) , tita Eliza, and tita Shirley drinking.

And ALEX felt like he was drunk. Haha!

There was nothing exciting there actually, except for the grown-ups who had the priveledge to drink. I wanted nga sana to join them but i doubt that they're gonna let me drink cause my mom's not around. :|

But at least there was something worthwhile that we could do there. PICTURE TIME!! =)) Hehe. Since tita Chita's house is the ancestral house. (that means it's already old) We took "SCARY" pictures. None of them was scary at all. But surely, we had fun.

Since Alex acted like he was drunk even though he only took a sip of beer. On our way to San Juan, he kept screaming (i forgot na what he was saying but i think that it's something like "do not take the name of christ in vain"?? I don't know. Probably something that when you say it out loud while in the car and your window's open and you're holding a SOCK, people would think that.. "hey! Is that a maniac of what? Is he crazy? Or is he in special ed?" Something like that. WELL anyway, reached our destination. ;)) We used the computer. And hunted. Basta, now is not the right time for you to know what that means. ;)) Yun, YM kami. The usual. We ended at around 2.30. I actually didn't feel like it was already 2.30 til' Abaya told us. I thought it was only around eleven or twelve. Haha! We wanted to watch DVDs panaman sana. :( But sadly, when we entered tita's room, she told us to sleep na. :( So, we slept.

I woke up at around 9.00. The aircon was still on, everyone was still asleep so i didn't bother getting up. I continued sleeping. I woke up at 12.00. Then i thought.. "Now's the perfect time to wake up. Better wake Isabel up." Eh Isabel panaman is a heavy sleeper. Eh, I remember her saying.. "wake me up when you wake up ha. If i don't wake up, get a wet towel and wipe my face". Ehhh, I was lazy to get up and get a wet towel pa so i touched her face. As if my hand was the wet towel and I used my feet to push her, so that she's wake up na. Well, she did. I got the camera. DAMNIT. She saw me get the cam, so she covered her face with the comforter. :|

SAYANG! I wasn't able to take her picture.

We went down, and ate BRUNCH. After that, well, we did the usual. YM and stuff. Then we asked Wena (her maid) to put on nail polish on our nails. Yun, ym lang. Then we went to the attic. I set up the DVD player and we watched Scary Movie 1 and 2. ACTUALLY, we weren't able to finish Scary Movie 2 because of the Power Interruption. :| The brown-out only lasted for less than 5 minutes, but we were too lazy to turn on the DVD player na again. so, we went downstairs and we saw Andy. She just arrived from.. here. :| (from tita's house.. which is beside my house)

We ate dinner, then made kwentuhan, then i left na. Hehe.

I'm already LAZY. :|

zamo's place.

ZAMO'S PLACE.***

Pumunta ako at si Isabel sa house ni Zamo kanina. ;)) Kala ko nga, hindi matutuloy kasi medyo. 11 na tulog pa si isabel!! Eh, yun. Kaya pina tawag ko si zamo sa house ni isabel para gisingin na sya. Eh, si Alex yung nakasagot. Kala ni Alex, ako yung tumawag. Kala nya ako yung nagpapagising kay Isabel. :-o Holy mother of.. :-o kaboses ko ba si zamo?! /:) I don't think soo! Haha!

Ayun, pagdating sa house niya. Nag-chill muna kami. Tapos, kinalikot ko stuffies ni Zamo. Tapos watch ng konting T.V. tapos, wala. Kumain na kami ng lunch. Yellow Cab. Naka-3 slices ako ng Pizza! Woeh. Haha. Super quiet namin while eating. Eh kasi, gutom kami eh. Haha! Tapos nakakaaliw yung chess set sa house ni Zamo. Parang, yung mga Officials ng Pamahalaan. Tapos andun si Erap and GMA. Haha!

Nanood kami ng movies. Haha. First, The Maid. Medyo scary. After nun, "CLUE" naman yung pinanood namin. It's like an Old Movie na 1950's pa ata. Haha! I don't like old movies. :| But watching that was fun. Ang funny kaya! Hahah! After nga rin, The Wig nmn pinanood. Hindi siya scary. Kadiri lang, puro blood. Haha!

Tapos, nag-dinner kami.

ME: Gusto ko yung White Meat Part sa chicken
ZAMO: Yuck!
ME: eh.
ZAMO: rosario, ano mas gusto mo? balat or white meat?
ISABEL: BONE!
ME: :|

LOL. kasi si isabel, expert kumain ng bone! simot to the bones nga yun. tapos kinain ko yung bone. tapos naaliw si zamo. haha! tapos. ewan.

tamad na ako magtype.

ang benta talaga nito.

ANG BENTA TALAGA NITO.***

Walalang, naalala ko lang ito. Kahapon kasi, pumunta na si Isabel sa dance. While waiting, nagparinigan kami ng songs sa ipod. Siya, meron siyang isang playlist doon, nakasulat.. "OP SONGS". Tinanong ko kung ano yun. Akala ko kasi, OPM na walang 'm' ung OP songs. Mahilig si Isabel sa Rock music. SO, sabi nya. OP songs daw, yun ung mga OP na songs like, senti, hiphop. SOO parang ako.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!=))

holy week.

HOLY WEEK SPECIAL.***

Osige. Ikekwento ko muna yung nangyare sakin nung nasa province ako. HAY HANEP! ang saya. Ganito kasi yun. Dapat, Saturday palang, travel na kami papunta ng Pangasinan. Kaso nga lang, tinamad ako. HAHA! tapos. Kasi, medyo broke kami ngayon! :(( So parang, ewan. (SUS, kahit naman broke kami hahanap parin ng paraan mom ko para lang makapunta sa beach noh! LOL) Anyway, yun nga. HINDI na nga kami natuloy ng Saturday. Nakakatawa nga eh. Read this..

MOM: Ano lara? Punta tayo ng Panga on Saturday? :> TARA!! BEACH TAYO!! HUNDRED ISLANDS!!!
ME: Oh? Talaga?? <:-p *party mode* Ang dami nating PERA noh? YIHEEE!!! =)) *tonong nang-aasar* TAPOS BIGLANG SINAKAL AKO NG NANAY KO. :|
ME: HA! Hindi mo lang matanggap na wala na tayong Pera! HAHAHA!! Sa 15 ka na ulit magkakapera! Haha!

Tss. Grabe yun eh. Sinakal ba naman ako. :)) Hindi kasi niya matanggap na wala kaming Pera. Pero, huy ha. Hindi totoong sakal yun. Yung biro-birong sakal lang yun, kasi eh, baka isipin nyo na sadista yung nanay ko. CHAHAHA! Ayun nga, 11.00 kami umalis ng Manila. 11.00 pm ng monday, tapos dumating kami sa Pangasinan ng mga 2.30. ayos naman yung Biyahe. HINDI AKO NATULOG. Paano ba naman kasi, sanay akong matulog ng 3am. ;)) Ayun, tinawagan ako ni Marty. Kinukulit ako. Tapos meron isang thing na sinabi niya! :-o Tinanong ko kung ano yun. TAPOS AYAW NIYA SABIHIN! Kaya binabaan ko siya ng Telepono >:)

The Next day, Tuesday na yun diba? Naisipan namin mag-beach! WHOOHOO! Hundred Islands! Kahit na feeling ko, na napuntahan ko na ata lahat ng 132 islands doon, game parin ako. Sino ba naman ang makakatanggi sa Beach noh?? Actually, Hindi ko alam kung sino, PERO ANG ALAM KO. AKO ang hindi makakatanggi! Hahaha! Anyway, ayun nga. Nag paitim ako. Actually. Halos wala nangang iniiba yung color ko eh. Paano, beach ng beach. ABA, baka naman maging BITCH na ako. Ahaha! Hindi naman. LOKO LANG. ;) Hehe. Nasa multiply nga yung mga pictures eh. ;)

DAY TWO. Paggising ko, tinanong ko agad mga tao kung saan kaming beach pupunta. Madami na din kasi kaming nandun. Mga Relatives ko, dumating na. :) Ayun, aba. Nagbihis kaagad ako! swimsuit ko, nasa ilalim ng damit ko. TAPOS, 3.30 ng hapon pa kami umalis ng bahay! ANG LATE NA! Eh 10.30 bihis na ako eh. Game na game na ako mag-swim! BTW, sa Tobuan kami pumunta. Panget sand doon. Kulay PUTIK. :| Pero Fine naman. Maganda yung WAVES doon eh. Ayos, ang lakas. ;)) AYUN. Pagdating namin doon, medyo.. BORING. Kasi, ako lang pati kapatid ko pati pinsan kong bata. Eh kapatid ko pa naman autistic. Tapos yung pinsan ko naman ayaw pumunta dun sa malayong part. Hindi siya naniniwala sakin. Shallow lang kasi yun eh. Mga hanggang waist lang. Hinihila ko siya, ayaw naman. (Hindi pala ako kapani-paniwala?) Haha. Tapos, dumating na yung Pinsan kong babae na taga St. Paul Makati. Si Sam. Eh, medyo hindi na siya batang isip. 10 na siya eh. Medyo nauunawaan na nya ako. Tapos, medyo kasundo ko na siya. ;) So ayun, pagdating niya, LINABAS KO KAGAD DIGI KO! WHOOHOO! Picture-Picture! Ayun, so nag-pose na kami. Alam mo na, yung normal kong ginagawa. Pa-emo emo pa kami na ewan. Anyway, tapos, yung pinsan ko. Aba ewan ko ba, biglang bumenta nalang sakin yung hirit niya. Sabi niya, " Lagay tayo ng Sunblock lotion!" Sabi ko.. "Huh? Ikaw, maglagay ka.." Tapos pinahid niya ung sand sa katawan niya at sinabing.."Eto oh, SAND-BLACK lotion. ehehehehe". Pucha, Ang Lakas ng tawa ko!! Bentang-benta sakin. Kaya kung mapapansin nyo, sa multiply ko, madaming pics doon.. mukha akong gusgusing bata! :)) haha! Si carlo kasi eh, SAND-BLACK lotion daw. LOL.

Day Three. Pumunta naman kami ng Bolinao. Alam niyo ba yung Puerto del Sol? Well, tingin ko konti lang sa inyo may alam nun. ETO NALANG, alam nyo ba yung video ni Nina na "I don't wanna be your friend" ? Well, sa Puerto del Sol kasi yun. Doon kami pumunta! Haha! KIDDING. Hindi noh. Hindi naman kami Overnight mag-sstay doon eh. Kaya nag-rent lang kami ng cottage malapit doon. Tapos nag-ihaw kami. Sa Puerto kasi Bawal magdala ng food eh, so ayun. Hehe. :) White sand naman doon. Kaso hanggang tuhod lang yung water. Tapos pagdating sa dulo, biglang bagsak ng mga 20 ft or more. Di ko lang sure eh. Anyway, corals nalang aapakan mo doon. Basta, nakakataot. Hahaha, pero masaya mag-snorkling doon. LUCKILY, Doon sa shallow part.. may part doon na halos kasing-laki ng jacuzzi, tapos medyo hanggang waist siya, kaya doon nalang kami nag-stay. ;) Hehe. Ang nakakainis lang doon, puro weeds! Hindi yung lumulutang na nakakairita ha. PERO, yung nakatanim pa doon sa sand. So parang habang naglalakad ka, pwede ka ma-off balance kasi medyo slippery. Haha. Eto isa pa, ANG DAMING WEIRD CREATURES DOON! (okay, i'll change 'weird' to 'odd' kasi may magagalit. hehe. PEACE ZAMO ;)) ) Ayun, may nakita kaming parang leech! Kala namin Leech, kaya nadiri pa ako hawakan. Tapos sabi ng Lolo ni Sam, Sea Cucmber daw yun. FINE, edi hinawakan ko na. Pero may mali, ang weird ng feeling. Parang bulok na vegetable kasi ang soft ng loob! :)) Hehe, kaya dinala namin sa cottage. Gumagalaw sya!! Parang humihinga or something. Tapos, nakita namin, sa side nun. May butas. Parang humihinga siya dun sa butas na yun. Eh, nagdududa ako! Feeling ko talaga Leech yun. Kaya kumuha ako ng lighter, sinunog ko. Kaso namamatay yung apoy kaya Kumuha nalang ako ng stick. Tinusok ko. Eh ayaw! parang ang tigas na ewan. Kaya yun, tinusok ko nalang doon sa butas. Linusot ko yung stick sa butas! Pagtanggal ko, wala naman. Kaya tinusok ko ulit. Tinusok ko ng tinusok ng tinusok ng madaming beses. Yung mga kasama ko, sabi nila, tumigil na daw ako kasi naawa sila. Sabi ko, "Ehh, hindi ako naaawa" kaya yun. tapos. Tumigil na ako. Wala kasi akong napapala eh. Walang change. Tapos, nakita ko, biglang may lumalabas dun sa opening kung saan ko siya tinusok! KADIRI! Sinuka niya ung laman-loob niya! Para niya kasing sinuka yung intestines niya! :-& EEEWWWW!!!! BTW, may pics ako nun sa multiply. :>

Bukas na nga DAY 4, 5 and 6! =))

dance.

SUMMER DANCE WORKSHOP.***

Okay. Medyo lang. Masakit lang naman katawan ko diba. BIRO MO. 4 1/2 hours ako nagsasayaw! ANAK NG...... Ano ba naman yan. =)) haha! PERO AYOS LANG. Decision ko naman yun eh. I took hiphop 2(advanced), hiphop BEGINNERS and Jazz 1.

BAKIT nga ba hiphop beginners?
Eh kasi, si rosie ung teacher. EH ASTIG UN EH! gusto ko siya magturo. Kaya, kahit na mag-aaksaya ako ng 2,800php; CGE PARIN, kukunin ko yun.=))

Ang astig nga ni ROSIE eh. Kasama siya sa world hiphop team! woooh! galing talaga nya. Nakakaaliw. Tapos, hay basta. EWAN.

SCHEDULE_;)
11.00: nagising ako, nag panic at nataranta at naligo at. EWAN.
11.20: arrived at perfroming arts.
11.30-1.00: hiphop BEGINNERS.
1.00-2.30: jazz 1
2.30-4.00: BREAK! pahinga, kain ng lunch and breakfast! =))
4.00-5.30: hiphop 2

[nangyare nung hiphip beg.--rosie]
grabe. 11.00 na ako nagising. TAPOS CLASS KO 11.30! haha! Ang laki kong Batugan. =)) yun tuloy, nagpanic ako. NALIGO, inayos yung gamit. TAPOS, tumakbo papuntang performing arts. (walking distance lang naman e.) Haha. Aun, nakita ko si "SEXY" (si sam monse yan) haha. class niya, before ng class ko. (jazz beg. siya.) Haha. grabe talaga. akala ko LATE ako. :| pero yun pala, nauna ako sa iba kong classmates. =)) ay pesteng schedule ko. SANA KASI, hapon nalang yung hiphop beg. ko. KASO, pag hapon. SUS! hala na! sunod sunod dance ko! =))


[nangyare nung JAZZ 1--rosie]
Grabe, pamatay yung warm up namin kanina. :| nag sit-ups kami. BUONG SONG sit-ups! jusko. ang sakit. :| feeling ko nga, pagtapos na yung summer, may abs na ako. :| mukhang wala siyang balak palampasin ang sit-ups. :|

ang tagal ko na hindi nag t-take ng JAZZ. PAANO KASI, hindi ko yun kinakarir. hiphop kinakarir ko e. kaso, naisipan kong.. SUBUKAN. Grabe Kanina, SUUPER kabado ako. Feeling ko kasi hindi na ako marunong sumayaw. NG JAZZ. =)) haha. PERO, nakasurvive naman ako. ;)) buti nalang, useful yung mga natutunan kong "JAZZ" nung grade 3-6 ako. :))=)) haha! haynako. naiinis nga ako eh. JAZZ 1 parin ako. :(( eh ang tagal ko na sa Julie. :| pero buti hindi beginners. =)) ANYWAY. kanina, walang choreography na tinuro. Siguro kasi, madaming mga "trial" students kanina. Basic stuff lang naman ginawa namin kanina. EH BASTA, yung warm-up lang yung. ugggh. :))=))

Pagkalabas ko ng studio, tinanong ko si recie, kung ayos lang. eto..

Me: ui! shit, nakakabahan ako kanina. AYOS LANG BA??
Recie: oonaman, kaso nung nagreready kayo mag- pirouette, nakakatakot itsura mo eh, para kang mag-ttriple.

potek. NAKAKATAKOT DAW ITSURA KO. ay, tapos, si SEA, sabi nya. para daw akong naghihiphop. :(( nicocontrol ko nanga movements ko e. :((


HAHAHA. :|


[nangyare nung HIPHOP 2--dave]
eto,ang pinaka masaya sa lahat. KASI, meron akong crush. (crush dati) taga lsgh. grandson of Julie Borromeo. SUMAMA siya sa hiphop class ko! WHOOHOO! ang saya. hindi ko inaasahan na sasali siya! WHOOHOO! kami ni ernestine, wala na kaming nasabi. wah. haha!

NAKAKAPAGOD YUNG MGA TINURO NI DAVE KANINA.
*yeeeyyy! breakdance kami sa tuesday! \:d/ kaso baka nasa province ako nun. :((